Crisis of existence

[ar81]

World is in crisis.

But I am in a crisis of existence.
It is like feeling that everything is boring, that nothing goes as expected, that life is not as you had planned it, a sense of surreal.
I have been overworked with two changes of shift at work that makes me be tired and asleep, and with no change to sleep.
Have you ever had that feeling?

 

[Jarvitä]

No, you are the only person on Earth who has even felt like that. You are abnormal and should look into a permanent solution to your temporary problem.

 

[eveningsky339]

World is in crisis.

But I am in a crisis of existence.
It is like feeling that everything is boring, that nothing goes as expected, that life is not as you had planned it, a sense of surreal.
I have been overworked with two changes of shift at work that makes me be tired and asleep, and with no change to sleep.
Have you ever had that feeling?

Are the changes of shift the cause or did you feel like this before then?

 

[Urwumpe]

It is like feeling that everything is boring, that nothing goes as expected, that life is not as you had planned it, a sense of surreal.

things don't work like planned and you are bored? How exciting is this! Ever heard of interesting times?

 

[Jarvitä]

Also, turning to self-appointed internet psychiatrists for help like this probably isn't a good idea.

 

[Urwumpe]

Also, turning to self-appointed internet psychiatrists for help like this probably isn't a good idea.

Depends on what you want... If you want him to go postal, this might be the best idea of him.

 

[ar81]

Also, turning to self-appointed internet psychiatrists for help like this probably isn't a good idea.

Specially when members of that internet community refer you to a bullcrap Zeitgeist (and a few of them believe that) "documentary" (poor journalism?) that makes me be more bored as I realized it was crap. I want my 2 hours at home back.

I am a bit bored of not achieving anything lastly in terms of personal projects at home.
I have not been able to discipline myself to continue making an Orbiter addon.
I have not even be able to get the proper inspiration to make drawings...
Probably shift change is not helping too.

 

[Urwumpe]

I have not been able to discipline myself to continue making an Orbiter addon.

I know the problem. I looked again today for 30 minutes at the SSU code before deciding to make a SKC/34 mesh... creativity does not always come automatically, and most creative people need rituals and habits to get creative.

 

[eveningsky339]

Specially when members of that internet community refer you to a bullcrap Zeitgeist (and a few of them believe that) "documentary" (poor journalism?) that makes me be more bored as I realized it was crap. I want my 2 hours at home back.

I am a bit bored of not achieving anything lastly in terms of personal projects at home.
I have not been able to discipline myself to continue making an Orbiter addon.
I have not even be able to get the proper inspiration to make drawings...
Probably shift change is not helping too.

Sounds like you are bored in general. It happens to everyone at some time or another. Too much Orbiteering, perhaps? A little vacation could be in order.

 

[Urwumpe]

Sounds like you are bored in general. It happens to everyone at some time or another. Too much Orbiteering, perhaps? A little vacation could be in order.

Or break out of the usual patterns...

When I can't see a computer anymore, I disappear in my small workshop and do scale model building.

 

[McWgogs]

Do a barrel roll!

 

[spaceranger]

You're not alone. I've got a half dozen projects I've wanted to work on for years, but my 40-60 hour a week job, with no reward other than having to work harder, has sucked my soul dry, man. Gar.

I'm thinking of just going to school again .. screw this .. :rofl:

 

[ar81]

I think I need something to put my time to use, so I do not have to spend my time with crappy conspiracy theories. But to do that I need to break the creative barrier I have, so I create art instead of entertain myself with annoying theories, while I have better and more creative options.

Boredom comes out of creative blocking.
And I have some creative ideas in mind, but blocking and boredomares not letting me to act creatively.

And I need to stay away from sources of controversy, to focus again.
So I think I will remain here most of time.

 

[Eagle]

ar81, you just need some love and appreciation. Its hard to find that on the internet, so I suggest friends and family.

As for getting beat up for your ideas on the forum. Bad ideas or ones with poor support will always get bashed, good ideas get bashed too. Nothing personal, but you do present a wide range of ideas, some good, others not as well thought out. But that's the spice of life.

Just can't take it personal. I actually find it rather humorous whenever I get called something, especially when the characterization is wildly incorrect.

Meh, wouldn't we all love to change the world, but I can't even solve my own problems.